Do I Really Want to Leave?

Let's face it. No one really wants to work as a hostess, server, or busboy...though in some restaurants, being a waiter is a career and an art. That I get...otherwise, it's necessary money for survival to supplement whatever aspiring career goals you may have. No one wants to do this forever. The physical work can be grueling and customers are annoying. Ironic isn't it? Customers are the life blood of a restaurant, yet they are annoying as hell.

I was off the past two Saturdays, mostly because it's been slower. Though hostessing is a supplemental job for me (supplemental but necessary), I often wonder what would I do with my time once I no longer need my extra job. It does scare me a little to let go of the one job that has me face to face with different people all the time, to know that there is more out there than the immediate people I deal with on a daily basis whether it be friends or co-workers at my other gig.

Right now I don't need to worry about what I'm doing on Friday and Saturday nights....I know I'm working. Don't get me wrong. I'm a social girl, but having to feel obligated to be social on the recreational nights of the week, and all of a sudden not having access to different people all the time, scares me a bit. At the same time, restaurant characters are way more colorful than the ones you encounter at a 9-5 job.

I know that one day I will leave. I don't want to have to hostess forever as it tires me, and there are times it's stressful (except when my managers sneak me drinks and food at the end of shift). Hey, I love my celebrity sitings.

Just know that when it does end, I'll be just a bit sad.